these last 4 days have been some of the longest of my life...

i'm stilling wait for it to pass.

it just sucks waiting when you can't find anything to distract yourself from situation.

i fail.

i want...

to go somewhere and watch the stars this week.

i really need a night to get out with some music, a blanket, and my girl.

this i've decided.

it shall be done.

also...

i think too much. and thus i worry too much. a barrage of thoughts sit in my brain like gumballs that rest in a machine until the little door opens and lets one out.

"colors bleeding, so deceiving... no I won't change, another thing, I cracked the bell, I tried to ring..."

at dawn

starts a new day.

it's a simple work of art, created by nature in response to earth's rotations around the sun. perhaps nature felt it the universal way to see the light and start anew. how fitting then, that we are awoken each day by this very force of the world.

soon I go back to school. soon I return to my "work" schedule on another semester closer to my eventual real career.

hopefully I'll have a clearer picture of what I want to do in life...
hopefully I'll understand more about myself...
hopefully I'll be able to offer something more to the world...

--come the dawn from this day next year.