October's gone, November's here to stay.

Busy busy past month. Between my first-ever college midterms, Treasure Island Year 3, Halloween, and a few trips back home, I rarely even had a chance (or desire) to sit down and type out a blog post.

But now that October has passed, I feel that I should catch up with the internet.

Dear internet,

I missed you.

Sincerely,
me

What's on my mind lately you ask? My future. Where I am in life. All of that.

I think I can blame the first semester of GE classes for such thinking, because in the past week I dipped my feet into other options for school. Specifically the Academy of Art/Art Institutes of SF. I'm bored right now at GE and feel like I should be working on something I want to do.

That is, until I slept on the thought and woke up the next day to realize that even if I was at an art school, god knows if I'd want to be there setting in stone what I want to do in life. A great Swedish man reminded me yesterday that no one has any idea what they want to do at 18.

It's just that when you're 18 and bored with what you're doing, you start to think a lot about what you want to do. The same Swedish man also talked to me about his career choices. He finished school and started a career with his chosen major, only to realize that he didn't want to be stuck in that field for the rest of his life. Thus, he went back to school for a different focus.

In short, I need to slow down and realize that - HOT DAMN - I'm only 18 and have thousands of options still in front of me. So for now, I think I'll stick it out at the ol' SF State and get my GE two years out of the way before I reconsider switching schools.

Cheers to November, I need this to be a good month.

i want to thank you, for all that you are

My Morning Jacket recorded a few of their albums inside of an old grain-silo. Both for the sound and the place.

I've always wished that I could be a fly on the wall during one of their recordings. To put a song together with others must be the ultimate "all from scratch" piece of work possible. Life experiences and emotional pain onto paper, words into singing, melodies made through instruments, and finally recording it together.

It has always been my biggest regret that I didn't take band in school while growing up.

For some reason I always made it out in my mind that those were the nerdy kids that you didn't want to be. The kids who pushed farther than everyone else, when it really wasn't required. I realized a few years ago that those same kids are going to be the thinkers of the world. The ones that enlighten others the most, the ones that wrap their great ideas into great works.

With so much to choose from for careers, I guess what I'm wondering is if it's too late. I'm not much of a guitarist now and I've always pushed aside lessons out of sheer stubbornness, but I wonder.

I don't know what I want to become.

I know that I love music. I love art. I love the feeling that a piece of art can inspire others.

I just don't know where to go with that.

I just sent off an e-mail to the MMJ manager, in hopes that maybe I can get some sort of response from the MMJ camp, maybe even from Jim James himself. I simply asked, is it too late? I know that people say "it's never too late", etc. in response to questions like the above but I really want to hear it from someone who has done it. Someone who has been what I've only dreamed of becoming. Someone capable to inspiring others, like myself.

I'll keep you updated on whether or not I received a response.